Sean Penn Marriage to Robin Wright a Devastating Fraud: Divorce Led to Harsh, Bitter Truths, Actor Never Truly 'Loved by Someone'

Actor Sean Penn finalized his divorce from actress Robin Wright back in July 2010, but apparently the Academy Award winner still feels pretty bitter about the whole failed marriage thing. In a recent interview with Esquire magazine, 52-year-old Penn admits that the entire relationship was a fraud and that he was forced to face some rather harsh truths during the drawn-out divorce proceedings. After two heartbreaking failed marriages (Penn was married to pop star Madonna from 1985-1989), the "Gangster Squad" actor insists that he still struggles with the concepts of marriage considering he has never truly been "loved by someone."

Penn admits to Esquire magazine, "There is no shame in saying that we all want to be loved by someone. As I look back over my life in romance, I don't feel I've ever had that... I have been the only one that was unaware of the fraud in a few of these circumstances blindly."

Penn doesn't mention Wright by name in the interview, but it's obvious that the divorce left him completely devastated and even humiliated... apparently Penn was a victim of "blind love" - "When you get divorced, all the truths come out, you sit there and go, 'What the fu## was I doing? What was I doing believing that this person was invested in this way?' Which is a fantastically strong humiliation in the best sense, it can make somebody very bitter and very hard and closed off, but I find it does the opposite to me."

Things took a turn for the worse when the ex-couple's 19-year-old son Hopper got into a horrific skateboarding accident shortly after the divorce:

"When he was recovering, seeing the morphine go into him and give him relief created kind of a love affair for me with morphine and that usage of it," Penn confesses. "It had already been eight months of divorce and s**t, and raising a kid that's going through the divorce himself, and then this f**king thing happens ... it was a tough, tough time."

After Hopper recovered and moved back in with Wright, Penn found himself utterly alone - considering his 21-year-old daughter Dylan went off pursuing dreams of her own. It took a while for reality to finally sink in:

"I thought, 'Wow, I can actually go on a date.' And so I go out and I strike out four nights in a row, drinking at a bar and ending up home, you know, drunk. And on the fourth day I said, 'I could just go sit in the middle of the bed and watch TV at four in the afternoon, too. I don't have anything.' My daughter's doing her thing, my son's with his mother... So I turned on the TV and there was this earthquake in Haiti."

Penn's activism in Haiti is what truly helped turn his life around for the better - now the actor has a clearer perspective and more positive outlook on life:

"The road started with the most obvious kind of trauma -- my son's head -- and then to get to a place that had been just so devastated and traumatized, and then to see that in fact most of the trauma actually predated the earthquake... You had a country that had never experienced anything that related to comfort, and out of that you had great trauma - but also this great strength that, I think, we all benefited from."

Check out the full exclusive Penn interview in the January 2013 issue of Esquire.