Robert Pattinson 'Twilight' Rebellion: New Movie Anxiety, Ignores Twitter & Instagram Drama

During a very telling interview with the popular French fashion magazine Numero Homme, 29-year-old actor Robert Pattinson talks about his infamous "Twilight" days and how he approaches film making now.

When discussing the end of Edward Cullen, the British heartthrob explains that there were major moments of confusion and insecurity:

"I imagine the audience kept a certain image of me... I always feel like I have to prove myself. I did not have enough lead roles to make the people forget about it or to see me any differently. Waiting for that, I follow my path, with the constant reminder to diversify myself. I had a chaotic progression, with moments of explosion. It took years to digest what happened to me, the movies' success, the celebrity... [Before] I did not have a career's plan, not particular ambition. I had to create them from time to time." 

So, what's since changed?

"I still have lots of doubts about myself. The people I work with know this. Three weeks before filming, I just panic and call my family or friends telling them I will never be able to do it," Kristen Stewart's ex-boyfriend reveals. "At that moment I really think it is the truth. My confidence leaves me, reduced in tatters. And then it is back when I enter the set. Even knowing this, the next time, it happens again. The people around me don't even listen to me anymore" (via GossipCop translation).

So Pattinson makes sure to always remain focused on his own health and well-being:

"I just let myself breathe. It is like in love relationships: If we go into it giving it all without any perspective, things are condemned from the start. Polluted. I love letting other [things] in my life, in the creative area."

Perhaps he's even referring to fiancee, FKA Twigs?

"Leaving Los Angeles contributed to my balance as well. When we are there, the brain works weirdly. We imagine that leaving the city for a week will make us disappear from the radar. In England, where I come back to, all the people I meet don't work in the film industry." 

The "Life" star then continues:

"Sometimes I go through times when it makes me completely mad. I wonder what people are looking for when they type my name. Certainly gossip... That said, my career has not suffered from it. I am not blacklisted from anywhere yet. I am working with whomever I want... So I don't have the intention to force the audience to change their point of view. I need things to go in an organic way. Maybe one day I'll be seen differently."

But what about social media?

"Well, I must admit I still fall into the trap, fall into Internet limbo by looking at what is said about me. At least I never felt the need to leave comments! Sometimes I would like to and I would like to have a Twitter account to do so," R-Patz ponders. "But I know I would spend to much time on it. I would lose myself into it all night long. Nevertheless, I hope to avoid this kind of life. It is the reason why I don't sign up!"

And as for Pattinson's nonstop success in Hollywood:

"To be honest, I don't put myself in a situation where people order me around or try to change the way I am. The freedom I have to choose the people I work with, produce something really interesting - those who take me to be a part of their movie don't have a false idea of me. So they don't try to bend me or to change me... I don't regret to have rebelled in the past when it was time to do so. If we try to be a part of a mold when we are young, it is for sure leading to a disaster. We just end up not knowing who we are and we just begin destroying hotel rooms!"

He amusingly concludes:

"I know who I am. At least almost. Everything resides in the 'almost.'"

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