Evelyn Lozada, Chad Johnson Domestic Abuse Divorce Happened Due To Publicity: Says 'He Was A Blessing To Me'

In an interview with Access Hollywood, "Basketball Wives" reality star, Evelyn Lozada admitted that she would have never gone back to Chad Johnson if the abuse was kept private.

"I had physical scars. Obviously, I had to go to the hospital. I'm going to admit if there wasn't, I probably would have went right back in that house and would have brushed it under the rug...I wouldn't have wanted the world to know," Evelyn told Access Hollywood.

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Wehile fans watched Lozada break down about the breakup and the backlash from Johnson's fans, she now looks back at the experience as a total blessing, "I consider it such a huge blessing. Even though it was a very traumatic time for me...It's a huge blessing. As Iyanla Vanzant told me: 'I was a lesson to him, and he was a blessing to me.'"

She added, "It's still difficult even though it was a year ago, just having to watch it all over again. That was literally right after everything happened," said Evelyn. "It was hard. I'm trying to move on with my life and now the show's airing, so just having to deal with it all over again..."