Evelyn Lozada on Her Miscarriage: "I Wonder If It Was a Girl"

Livin' Lozada star Evelyn Lozada is living a nightmare when it comes to becoming a mother once again. MStars News has learned that the reality star miscarried her the third child she was expecting with her long time fiance, L.A. Dodgers outfielder Carl Crawford.

According to People, Lozada learned the sad news during her OB-GYN appointment in Saturday night's episode of the hit OWN show, Livin' Lozada.

"When I went to my first appointment, everything looked great," Lozada, 39, stated. "My progesterone levels were good."

Lozada, and Crawford have one son together, Carl Leo, 15 months. The former Basketball Wives star also has a daughter, Shaniece Hairston from a previous relationship. 

Lozada claims that she was overjoyed when she found that she was pregnant again, and instantly had a bond with her baby.

"You get that pregnancy test and you're instantly so connected," Lozada explained. "I was already wondering if it was going to be a girl this time."

But after finding out that she was six weeks along, came heartbreak when she learned that she'd more than likely have a miscarriage.

"My hormone levels were dropping," says Lozada. "My doctor said, 'Let's just see what happens and if anything changes.' "

MStars News previously reported that Lozada confided with her daughter about the news that would later be bad.

"It's not good," Lozada tearfully told her daughter. "I went [to the doctor] yesterday and she's like, 'Everything seems fine.' When I was on my way here, she left me a voicemail. She said that my hormone levels have dropped. When you're pregnant, your hormone levels are supposed to be in the thousands; [mine] went all the way down to 50."

That was the appointment that changed her life. "At my next appointment, my ultrasound went from looking really perfect and beautiful to looking pear-shaped," Lozada revealed. "You could just tell, it didn't look normal."

When the doctor's told her that she'd probably lose her third child, Lozada said "for me the most heartbreaking thing was knowing that it could take up to a day to maybe a week for it to happen." She added, "I became so obsessed with it. I kept taking pregnancy tests and one would come out positive, then one would come out negative. It was so hard not knowing when I'd lose the baby."

Despite having support from her family, Lozada believed losing her baby was her fault. "it's just something that a woman deals with alone. You have a million and one questions in your mind as to what happened. You just feel responsible. It's your body. It's a loss that only you can relate to."

"It's nothing that you ate, or did; it's not your age. One out of all four to five pregnancies end in miscarriage," she said. "I have three girlfriends and it's literally happened to each and every one of them."

"This was just another tragic incident in my life that I had to deal with. But I say God doesn't make mistakes. Women just need to hold out hope," she believes.

As for what her future holds in trying to have another baby, Lozada said, "I'm not checking for when I'm ovulating or anything. I'm like, look, I'm pushing 40. I'm going to be 50 with a 10-year-old! If it happens again, that will probably be my last."