Michelle Rodriguez Shocking Confession on Paul Walker’s Death: She's Jealous He Died First

Michelle Rodriguez, like many of her Fast and Furious co-stars, was devastated when Paul Walker died, but the actress now confessed that she’s upset the beloved actor died before her.

TMZ obtained a clip of her interview about an upcoming controversial documentary, The Reality of Truth. The 37-year-old actress talked all about life and death and while discussing her good friend’s death, she said she’s jealous Walker died before her.

"I have to say, you know, when I lost Paul, I went through about a year of just being an animal," she admits. "Like, what could I do, physically, to just get my mind off of existentialism? Get my mind off of how transient life is and how we come here and can just disappear at any moment. How could I get my mind off that?"

Rodriguez shared that she went “beserko” during the grieving period and said she “did everything possible to hide from myself.” Walker died in December 2013 in a fiery car wreck. He was 40 years old.

The actress’s interview was about her experience under the influence of a plant/drug called Ayahuasca. While talking about the drug, she also confessed that her sadness over Paul Walker's death was more so fueled by jealousy.

"I’ll tell you that my Ayahuasca trip made me sad that he left me here," Rodriguez said during her startling interview . "It wasn’t a sadness that he’s gone. It was more like a jealousy that he’s there first.”

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Rodriguez is the latest star to hail the benefits of the dangerous drug, which has become increasingly popular with Hollywood celebrities.